Its 3 weeks since I embarked on my quest to lose 2 stones in 11 weeks. Here are my ups and downs of the week. I forewarn you… It’s been mostly downs.
Baah, what a day! I just couldn’t muster up any oomph! Instead I vegged, ate chocolate and huge quantity of chips and pasta, finishing the day with a late night snack of chips and pasta.
Why was I so down? Nothing particular, but probably not helped by my laptop not wanting to switch on- An Acer Aspire ultrabook just over a year old. Another decision and expense!
Nice brunch with friends. My bread was irresistible!
Wandered around Oxford for an hour, then sat and drank coffee, munched a bread stick… not much to keep me going, is it?
All you can eat Indian buffet dinner. Although I came away having eaten way too much I didn’t eat myself sick as I often would. Result! I only had one plateful of mains, nibbled and munched on a fair bit more, but not to the point of feeling I need to be rolled put off the restaurant.
Usual porridge for breakfast.
Then the day felt like I was just constantly on the go. I felt energetic too. At one point, my friend came over and we started our cleaning pact.
Couple of slices of freshly made soda bread for lunch with houmous and ham.
In the evening we had sausages and chips. I kept going back for the chips- just couldn’t resist the crunchieness with the Dutch curried ketchup splashed on top.
In the evening I just kept going and ended up staying up very late.
My toaster is broken and I miss being able to have a quick toast of breakfast as an alternative for porridge! I used our combi microwave oven to make my toast instead, which was more of a faff ….and I forgot about having it till after the school run.
Preparing to go out I munched on the cheese I was packing for Max. Luck I did because I then missed lunch. I had 2 meetings, so all I could squeeze in was a coffee and a small side biscuit.
By the time we were home with the kids after the schoolrun I just wanted to sit on the sofa and veg, watching them play. Alas, it wasn’t to be- my phone alarm rang reminding me of their dental appointment in 20 minutes. I then made the most unusual decision- instead of piling into the car we were going to walk. Got the kids onto their balance bike and scooter and off we raced to the appointment a 15 minute power walk away…and then instead of heading home after that I took the Littlins to the park!
We only got home at 6.30 and there was no food waiting. 🙁 I quickly whizzed up a bolognese with carrots and parsnips blended into the sauce too. Some pasta and we had a delicious meal from start to finish in literally 25 minutes… and that includes peeling the veg. It was nice to finally eat and I made sure I drank loads too to make up for missing that in the day.
The day had taken its toll, so I didn’t make it downstairs after putting the kids to bed. It was an early bedtime for me and a rendezvous with my slimpod.
A binging day- I’ve been thinking of a pot of custard in the fridge since last night. I started the day with eating half the put with cornflakes. Lunch was sandwiches. Then before dinner I stumbled on some chocolate, scoffed it.
Normal sized dinner of mashed potatoes and grilled liver with some lettuce as a side. (I have a real craving for liver & pâté today.)
In the evening I went to pilates class. It was great, but by the end some muscles were just shaking instead of working… then I pigged out on the rest of the big put off custard. That’s 750kcal in just that pot of custard today. Baah!
What am I doing wrong?!
Well for one I stepped on the scales this morning, despite feeling that some clothes are fitting more comfortably. It was not good! Totally disheartened. 🙁
Having fresh baked white bread is not helping. Too delicious to resist overeating.
The weather totally depresses me! I blogged at the beginning of the year why I don’t think January is a good time to make resolutions to loose weight. Now would be the ideal time, but this rubbish weather just makes me want to hibernate.
A new day! And the beginning of half term with an inset day. After a difficult start and consoling a very disappointed child we headed out to our nearest zoo, the Cotswold Wildlife Park. The weather was atrocious, but we braved it and had a picnic and we walked a lot, in rain, in wind, in sweltering tropical houses.
I probably ate too much for the energy exerted- kept dipping into our sandwich supply and took some trail mix with us which, between mostly 3 of us, we finished.
And when we got home I realised how thirsty I was and how little water I had had during the day.
Another weigh-in day. Dreading it, as I know I’ve not been good this week.
I better get on with it!
This week I have
gained 0.3kg or 0.66lb!
I honestly had a wobble whether I admit my failure on here, but then realised I’d be lying to myself just as much. So here is my big big flop for the world to see.
This really upsets me even though I know it’s my own fault, my failing and missing meals and then overeating.
Why am I so low?
Is it because I feel I’m failing on the fundraising? I don’t know!
Can I please ask for your support?
And here’s how:
If you feel you’d be able to sponsor me, don’t sponsor me now, but please leave a pledge in the comments
- Tell me how much you will sponsor me by… and seriously even £1 is amazing!
- Tell me when I can claim the sponsorship? What do I need to achieve? Do I need to loose X kilograms/ X pounds?
Do I have to dive from an aeroplane first?
All sponsorship goes to the Lullaby Trust in the memory of Matilda Mae.
Other ways you can support the Lullaby Trust is:
- Buy Barefoot Books via my account
- Join me on my slimming journey
My goals for the next week
- drink at least 2 litres of water every day
- eat regularly, without skipping meals… and I’m not putting any other constraints on eating for this week!
- look at my goal map daily